http://yarinos.tigblog.org/ What's on the minds of young leaders from around the globe? en-us http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/208065 Actually didn’t imagine she would be that lovely!!!and though the delivery experience wasn’t that pleasant, it was one of the most physically painful experiences I’ve been exposed to, but I’m so happy to finally have her with me…]]> Mon, 21 May 2007 16:51:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/208065 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/166953
I took my book the one I book a year and a half ago ” The Great war for civilization “, actually he mainly talked about this specific 1300 pages book, he started by saying that usually he takes people who buys a 1300 pages for foolish people but he had quite a lot to say about Middle East but he promises his next book will be smaller, he’s such an ordinary man, not really looking like our famous writer who insist on wearing the most expensive suits in event like that and make a huge effort to draw that Cameras smile to seem important people, but this one was wearing the usual everyday less expensive clothes, you know that kind of clothes you wear on a daily basis as you get into the bus,and go and buy your daily stuff,and keeps jocking and laughing, he’s been just so spontanuous…

Being the only western journalist who made 3 Interviews with Ussama Bin Laden in Afghanistan, that was quite impressive, and I just couldn’t help but asking myself the same question that my mother in law asked me a little while ago, ” And he didn’t go to Jail? then why did they take Tayseer Alouni ( AlJazeera reporter ) to Jail ? “, he mainly talked about Iraq, Lebanon , Palestine, he lives in Lebanon since 31 years, he even signs in arabic his books translated into arabic…

The most impressive thing is that he has the same views like us in issues representing the elements of the Middle East Crisis : The War on Terror, Lebanese confessionalism, Israel, Palestine, Iraq,..etc, Starting by the title of his book he said that there is no such thing, there’s nothing called War for civilization neither war for freedom and stuff like that, and that the most dangerous thing is that the current wars are religious war, he says that he misses the Cold war, that now you’re just obliged to take sides, besides that now they’re fighting Islamists, so it’s not an ideological war anymore you’re not fighting Communists you’re just fighting Islam.

The most characteristic thing is the event was that I was for the first one to sign her book, maybe cz I was standing just infront of him, or maybe cz I’m the only pregnant in the event..:)
]]> Sun, 18 Mar 2007 12:06:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/166953 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/166941
A lot of things, events, changes has happened to me, and to the world around me..:)
I'm now expecting my first baby girl in less than 2 months, Still working in Human rights actually, but to tell you the truth : Working in Human rights for almost 3 years now has changed a lot of my perceptions about Life, Political systems, peace, social justice,and.....even Human rights itself, sometimes I feel that my views is becoming too cynical in this specific issue,but I just say that it's only realistic, or maybe the Global system just became too corrupted....

I do ask myself is there really something called Human rights? Or it's only one of those terminologies being manipulated by Political systems, actually every single system abuses and violates Human rights of its citizend, just each in a different ways....]]> Sun, 18 Mar 2007 07:39:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/166941 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/31406 Sometimes you feel something and your face just tells a totally different thing, somethimes you care and your facial expression tells the opposite.
Sometimes you're shocked,afraid and even angry but your facial expressions tells you're but a piece of stone,a block of ice and people start blaming you for not caring, or maybe for being such a stone heart,while inside you might be having all the feelings in the world, but all your guilt is that your face shows something else, something different, and people keep on telling you: "I get what I see", and in that case they get absolutely nothing.
There's some kinds of things that need to be felt first, and then if you feel them you'll see and hear the unseen and unheard, but in this case you stil don't see, then you'll never see,there's things that you need to receive with an entirely open heart, putting your reason out of the equation...

Does it happen to any of you??I just ask myself sometimes what a weird world where we're living,everything tends to be so complicated...

]]> Wed, 02 Nov 2005 15:05:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/31406 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/30374
Listenning to Tracy Chapman before going to sleep,while surfing the net seeking wooden windows...Nice wooden windows!!!!
I'm having my first class tomorrow in my human rights diploma,2 classes actually: " Civil society theories" and " and "Civil society in Egypt",A strange feeling,yeah a bit weird but true, I miss studying....Anyone who's hear me now would probably say who's this crazy person,but I'm just so excited about starting to study again...

Dire Straits: Brothers in Arms
Ramadan will start in a couple of days,working skeduals will change, working from 10 to 2 PM instead of 8:30 AM to 4, maybe 5 and sometimes to 8, it depends on the work load, but you know everything changes i such a holly month...
People tend to work less, sin less,families tend to see each others more,people think about god more,pray more,...etc

Pink Floyd: Wish you were here
I'm feeling a bit sleepy,looking around myself..what a messy room!!!!Clothes everywhere,books on the floor under the bed( I usually read before sleeping then put the books down on the floor), press releases I was working on are on the bed,the new Sting tape I just bought today, my diskman on the bed.....]]> Sun, 02 Oct 2005 16:43:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/30374 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/30327
It's Saturday,my best case scenario was to be sleeping now, or maybe watching TV or reading but unfortunately it's my working shift at the office...Beside my Human rights diploma is supposed to start today, I don't even know anything about my skedual so most probably I should pass by the university right after work and see if I'm having any classes today.

I'm in my office now,listenning to music " Fields of gold - Sting", I just love this song.I'm doing some work regarding this conference we're holding in Egypt regarding " Democracy and human rights in the Arab world".The working atmosphere here is so calm, my boss is away from the office, it seems to me that I'm the only one working here, the only one busy...]]> Sat, 01 Oct 2005 04:50:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/30327 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27894 I had my first art exhibition last thursday in the syndicate of Journalism,it was a day event organized by the Journalists for change organization as to request the release of the prisonners of opinion in Egypt.
In the morning,there was an editorial cartoons exhibition, I was one of 3 cartoonists featuring their work in the exhibition..It was a pretty exciting experience for me, as the two other cartoonists were ones of the most famous in Egypt.And people really liked my work, including one of those famous editorial cartoonists,as well as the organizers of the event.

After the exhibition, there was a workshop for the children of the emprisonned journalists, we were facilitating a session to let them draw.it was very touching,as those children from 3 to 8 years old sit drawing and to my surprize all of them drew the walls of a prison, it was very pathetic!!!
Later in the afternoon, there was seminars and open discussion sessions regarding the same theme. ]]> Mon, 15 Aug 2005 02:10:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27894 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27575 Wed, 10 Aug 2005 03:30:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27575 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27151
I actually applied for that diploma in the economics and political science faculty in Cairo university, it's about Civil society and human rights, I've been so excited about it as it should start in September so after tomorrow I'm going to the university to pay the fees and submit my papers.
Yesterday, I was talking about it with my fiancee over the phone and he asked me:
" So you seem to like Human rights as a career?"
And I said:
"Well,I've been always interested in Human rights theoritically, but as a career....I don't know, let's say I'm just exploring, maybe I'll be doing something totally different in a couple of years"
And I just thought about that career thing, 3 or 4 years ago I wouldn't imagine having a different career than my study, my passion: Illustration and editorial cartooning but now let's take a look at me, I'm working in a totally different field...
I don't know I'm just so lost in what concerns my career,I just don't know what to do, so as I just told him I'm exploring,observing...]]> Thu, 04 Aug 2005 02:55:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27151 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27063 I like this V5 a lot, CONGRATULATIONS TIG!!!!
It's been quite a while since I last posted any updates here...

I've been in that state of inner-break for a while,"Inner-break", a new expression isn't it??Maybe,but it's just that feeling of taking a break of most of the things you're surrounded by without taking a real break from them, I mean I'm being exposed to all those things, all those people on a daily basis.
They've been all affecting me in such a stressing method: my family, work daily stress, stupid colleagues, friends with whom I could not communicate very well lately, even the current events and I mean the world current events, sometimes you just get tired from hearing about disasters, explosions, bombings, killings, kidnapping,...etc and it doesn't necessarily have to be in my country to make me feel bad,but it's the ugliness of the event itself that makes me feel bad, irritated, or stressed.]]> Wed, 03 Aug 2005 02:00:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/27063 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25298 It's 18:30 here, and I'm still at the office, drowning in those loads of papers and documents, feeling exhausted but guess what I don't feel like going back home...
It's the weekend starting, but I'm not feeling any interested...I was just thinking about....Mmmmmm, let's say about not thinking about anything,I don't wanna think,I'm just letting myself drown in those papers...

I don't have anything special to add today,but I just thought about writting this update as to show a sign of life, to share this moment with you,with someone though it's no special moment...

Yara Kassem,from the Egyptian national council for human rights
18:30]]> Thu, 16 Jun 2005 11:22:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25298 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25175 I just started that extremely precious book, “the Zahir” of Paulo Coelho…and let me tell you the story of its extreme preciousness:

The time: May 22nd, 2005

The location: Faculty of Economics and Political science, Cairo University

The event: Open discussion about Literature and the dialogue of civilizations, Keynote speaker: Paulo Coelho

Since I first started to read for Paulo Coelho, and I wished to hear him speaking, discussing his books, his philosophy and captivating storytelling. When I heard he’s coming to Egypt, I just said to myself that I should not miss it.
When I first read one of his books, and that was “Veronica decides to die”, I was taken by his philosophy and by the messages he had put between the lines, and I just felt as if it was addressed to me, and only me…I even felt it was me who wrote that book, weird isn’t it?
Anyway, I went to that open discussion in Cairo University and as I reached there I immediately bought his most recent book “The Zahir”, I actually spent the last penny in my pocket to buy it, but it’s a thing I didn’t regret: as it now contains the signature of Paulo Coelho, from here comes the preciousness of such a book.

Starting by reading the introductory paragraph by the publishing house on the back of the book:
“With the Zahir, Paulo Coelho demonstrates not just his powerful and captivating storytelling, but also his extraordinary insight into what is to be a human being into a world full of possibility”.
My fiancée just pointed out to the last part of the written paragraph:”Into a world full of possibility”, I just didn’t notice how impressive, captivating and inspiring it is…Yes, we never consider how possibilities are just around us and we don’t even see it, notice it or think of exploiting it, that was a remark that made me think a lot. And it always happens with him (my fiancée I mean), he makes me focus, concentrate in such tiny but inspiring details that sometimes I just don’t get them from the first look even though I’ve been always fascinated with tinny details, with the background of the picture, of the observing game, those details opening up secret doors in my mind, attracting me to new places and horizons, different zones, he always says that he loves details because devil’s in the details.

]]> Thu, 09 Jun 2005 08:04:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25175 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25168 Like this day, June 9th, 7 years ago I had gone to that flowers store in down town and bought him a bunch of pink roses.I went back home put down the roses on the dinning table and went to my room, so as he went out of the bathroom he called me and kissed me on the cheeks...During that period, he was a bit upset cz I insisted on studying fine arts, and he wanted me to study politics,journalism or whatever would guarantee me a successfull career, he told me as you wish but I could see in his eyes that he was disapointed...

It's his birthday today,the 65th...But he doesn't belong to our world anymore,he's so faraway...he's not here anymore...And I trully miss him so much...
Happy Birthday,my dear Father...]]> Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:38:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25168 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25122 I've previously written about boredom,emptiness,and neutrality..I actually beleive that it's a state of mind,an inner feeling , a way how you see the world around you..
It's just like freedom,cz freedom is before everything an inner feeling,Yes I admit that being locked in a prison, a jail cell is so ugly,but being mentally and emotionnally locked is the worst, people sometimes lock theirselves into some ways of thinking,some restricted theories,when they keep on lockign theirselves into borring cercles of daily lives,refusing to change, to think differently, to react towards inspiring ideas,and they just keep on telling themselves "Oh!No,I'm not in the mood for this and that!", "I'll do this,but tomorrow,after tomorrow,the next month,the next year",and they even die before acheiving any of those dreams,they spend their whole lifetimes dreamign of an adventure,but the fear of changing the daily routine prevents them of tasting that fun...
So,Rule 1 is : Do not postpone...cz wasting time is the only thing we would regret...]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2005 04:45:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/25122 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24990 Is it me? Or it's just everyone else, anything else..
What is the meaning of being happy, well not being happy but the act of enjoying anything...I don't know,but why am I not enjoying anything??Why am I feel that empty, that neutral??

I have been just postponning everything,to that point that I feel that me, myself I became a postonned matter...Why do I keep telling myself that in a while things will change, get better, in a while life will not be that borring, that empty, that neutral, in a while I'll be having fun, I'll be having an intersting life, I'll be doing this and that, I'll be going here and there,I'll be my real self, but what if that tomorrow I'm talking about never comes, and I just keep postonning and postponning till I maybe die before realizing all those promises to myself.

I've been dreaming all my life of being that special and different person, a unique one, leading a different life, having different backgrounds than all my surrounding,living differently, but looking around myself I just realize that everyone is having fun, is having a life...except me, I just keep promising myself that I will have one, but later...now I just feel too neutral, like all those people walking in the streets, all those who we meet in the bus, everyone, just everyone...]]> Tue, 31 May 2005 06:26:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24990 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24589 "Yesterday's friends are today's ennemis"

Very ironic indeed, the history is full of examples and lessons to learn from but human beings have prooved their ignorance and disability to learn from it.
Let's take a look at the world's politics and modern history, back in the eighties in Afghanistan for examples, taking a look at those groups who were fighting against the Soviet forces as they were backed supported by the US...They supported them financially and supplied them with the necessary weapons, in order to beat the evil ennemi, the Communism, USSR..
Now that the evil ennemi is beaten, is gone, is does not exist anymore, then it's time to to find a new ennemi,so let's look for our old friend,our friend of Yesterday, the friend made in USA, created by US financial aids and weapons..Here is he coming, being the most dangerous terrorist group in the world now....
Isn't it Ironic!!!!!

Let's take a look to another old friend, "Saddam Hussein", yes he was one of yesterday's friends. Some might get offended or find my words a bit odd..But,why don't we consult history back to the war between Iran Iraq, let's ask ourselves one more question : who supported Iraq against Iran during that war? who backed it?supplied it with weapons? even nuclear and biological weapons? and the answer is always the US..yes,it's with US nuclear technology that almost a million of Kurds were murdered, and the International community was silent as if they were supporting this option, and the fact that now everyone condemns this atrocity claiming that it's a human rights violation doesnt mean that they were condemning it at that time but it's just that their political intersts are going along with that condemnation now.
Ironic, isn't it?

Isn't it ironic that almost after 30 years, hands started to pointing to Saddam Hussein as a war criminal, a serial killer and even a demon..
He violated the rights of his people, of his neighbours,of the whole world, of humanity..and when he was the friend was he a saint?an angel?
Now,it's just time to annouce a new ennemi, a new beast..
But,unfortunately a lot of brains in this universe can easily be manipulated by different medias , they cannot understand that politics is not that romantic, that freedom cannot be offered by any superpower, that people don't go to war to save human rights, that political and economic interests can move armies from the extreme west to the other side of the universe. Being down to earth and realistic requires us to undersand that politics is a dirty business, that the current world's system is too bizarre, that this unipolar system is too odd,too unjust to a point that it destroys the equilibrum of power, it deals with the concept of political solutions rather than justice.
What actually provoked me to write this is that thing that happened to me a few days ago, as I came back from work and opened TV and there was those series: the whole comic shot was about the Saddam Hussein regime, by jocking about the regime and its atrocities in Iraq...To tell you the truth I was offended for the exageration I sensed in the shot...especially that those series was not being performed in America, UK, Australia not a country of those they call the coalition country but in an Arab country, I just couldn't accept how the marionettes in the power positions ( even if it's the medias) ran to repeat the American chorus, call Saddam a demon...Ok,I'm not claiming he's a prophet but if we're to talk about demons, then I've got hundreds of examples, it's just that the superpower that Saddam will be the demon of the period,, while in less than 3 words the actor just declared his refusal for the American occupation in Iraq.

"How can they make fun of him in such a disgusting attitude? after all he's supposed to be an Arab leader, he's supposed to be resepcted..they're exagerating too much" I said

"It's only a drama" said my mother

But it's not only a drama, it's just a sign of the trap we're falling into.
We're twisting facts just in order to obey the super power of nowadays, we're brainwashing our peoples brains, we're erasing the acheivements of the Iraqi regime in the domains of education, health, science, millitary. WE just seem to be forgetting that half of our populations were sent to study for free in Baghdad university, Did we forget how proud we were about the Iraqi scientists? the Irai army?

and in specifically the domain of education, they blame him for fillinf each page with words of glorifying the regime. Well,it's fine by me since the curriculums are rich enough to produce such scientists and genius researchers.
A lot of curriculums in other countries of the world doesn't contain a single word about any leader not those similar sentences of glorifying but they does not contain any scientific or intellectual value, such weak curriculums producs empty brains, ignorant minds and poor visions unable to develop to progress..only the makers of such curriculums are called friends...
Isn't it ironic???]]> Wed, 11 May 2005 05:30:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24589 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24440 Sometimes I just get this feeling that those people who deal with me on a daily basis don't know me,as if they're just dealing with another person, a totally different one..Yes, it annoyes me a lot..that feeling that they're talking to someone I don't know and that I don't like...Sometimes they even get shocked claiming that I'm different than they thought I was...
Sometimes I just have that annoying feeling that nobody on earth can understand me, or get my thoughts..Isn't weird!!!!I feel sometimes that I'm treated as an alien, or a creature that they don't know where I came from...Well, guess what I just got used to that feeling and now after I'm 25, it doesnt annoy me anymore, yeah..It makes me feel different, and sometimes special..Yes, I now love myself the way I am now , when I was a kid I just wished to be like them, like everyone, with nothign different, it's weird but you know sometimes people make you feel that being different is a sin...But, now I just get annoyed when people make me feel that I'm like everyone else...Borring,normal...etc
Actually sometimes,those people I see everyday give me that feeling of being an alien, like some of my collegues at work...they just tell me :"Oh God, you're too different", and they just say it as if being different is a sin, they actually tell me that they cannot get to understand me at all, one of my collegues once told me :"you know what, I really need a katalog to be able to deal with you"...maybe I just have my own moods, my own beleifs and views that I cherich so much and that might be different than the traditionnal views and I don't try to hide them....
But,I just like myself like that....]]> Wed, 04 May 2005 04:41:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24440 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24336 I was talking to my colleague that other day, it was 6 PM and we were still at the office there was that meeting of the executive committee so before we leave I had that email that I had to send to the UNDP regarding the fund payment. Anyway, she started talking about our daily life, our common lifestyle and she almost spoke my mind.
She told me that we’re supposed to be living in the best period of our age, but she can’t find it any special it’s just too boring, too common she just hates that deadly routine that repeats itself every single day…After many years, we wouldn’t find any memories to characterize this period, nothing special will remind us with it…
Yes, she was totally right…it’s not only the boredom of the daily routine, but it’s the fact that we don’t do anything with value, not a thing that I could consider an achievement…Not on the academic level, the professional or even the social…Well, Yes I work in the domain that I always have been interested in (Human rights), but it’s the feeling that I need to work with all the skills, the talents that I’ve got, my brain needs to fully be activated, my creativity, my talents. Also, on the academic level I don’t know maybe I need to learn more, I don’t know about what specifically and the social level as well, my social life I don’t think I’m having fun in this domain, I don’t think I would remember this period at all later not by an achievement I’ve made (not on the professional or the academic or the cultural level) and not on the social level through the circle of friends, outings, having fun and so on….

Routine has always been my first enemy, Yes I always hated boring daily life, common days that always look alike to that point that you’d say that it’s but one day continuously being repeated…and change is not necessarily in the way your day goes, you might have no change in your daily details but you can perceive them differently, you might start your day by a different thought, a different perception…Sometimes I just look at the mirror in the morning and it just seems to me that I’m looking to a different person, and that make me feel good…I like change, though I get lost sometimes with beginnings but change is like the fresh air, it renew our lives, refreshes our souls…
Sometimes it’s useful to start our day with a tear, sometimes with a smile, other times with a loud laugh…sometimes I start my day with a joke, sometimes a tragic story and other times a poem, but I cannot start all my days by the same story or the same article…I just hope I made my point clear…

So, now I just feel that there’s something missing…something that needs to be done, to keep that smile on my face, that smile of being happy, proud, maybe confident, something that would make me feel valuable, human…and special, not just one like those millions of people walking in the streets, thinking about nothing but to finish work and go home, eat and sleep then wake up to go to work again, and then eat and sleep till the weekend comes, and when the weekend comes they will eat and sleep longer, and then curse the day when they were born in such a boring life and then out of a sudden their life’s over, what did they do about it. Nothing, absolutely nothing…I once read that quote that I liked a lot it says: “Death is more universal than life; everyone dies but not everyone lives”…So, I just want to live…I don’t want people to remember me when I die, I just want to remember moments of glory, of happiness, of value in my life before I die.

]]> Thu, 28 Apr 2005 02:46:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/24336 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/23689


I remember that day very well…It was in Hilton Belgrade, as we went there immediately after we arrived to the airport. That was in 1983, as I was not more than 3 years old but I can remember that place very well maybe because it has a very special place in my heart…

I was wearing that white dress and eating ice-cream, and I remember that Old Fat Italian man who smiled at me and loudly said:

“Pricessa”





In a couple of days, we moved to that house in 16th Vladete Kovacevica Street. And as we entered from the big black Iron Gate we could hear the voice of that wolf dog “Votchko”, he might seem a bit scary but in a very short while we became best friends…As we used to spend most of our times together, playing together in that big green garden, running between the huge fruits trees. And those times when my father caught me drinking from his bowl of water and let him eat from my ice-cream, those things that my father used to call dangerous didn’t have another name in my dictionary but the word “Intimacy”…

It was a two floors house; with that big garden with huge trees…we rented the first floor as the owners used to live in the second floor: Mikitsa, Mitsa and their daughters Sophia and Natasha…

Natasha was a couple of years older than me, so we used to spend a lot of times playing together and later on when we grew up we had a lot of stories to exchange, about school, about Egypt ,…etc

As for Sophia, she was a lot older than us. She was a teenager; I used to admire her curly brown hair, her messy small room that she used to decorate with those empty red Coke cans…I actually remember that day when she came to borrow those fake make up( that my aunt bought me when she visited us in Belgrade) that I used to play with when she was having a date…



At first, my parents got worried about me, being exposed to 3 languages at the same time at such an early age: My parents used to talk to me in Arabic, Yuvanka (my nanny), Natasha and Sophia in Serbian and Mira (my father’s secretary) in English. To the point that my father asked Mira to stop talking to me in Serbian.

Later on, I mastered Serbian, Arabic and French and since then maybe I feel in love with languages.



I had two nannies, Yuvanka and Amina: Yuvanka was Serbian and Amina was Bosnian

, and they were never actually on good terms together...Well, they were never actually fighting together but I could always sense those negative vibes between them both…I could never understand why, Of course I could never understand or even imagine that it would have ethnic reasons, I couldn’t understand why would someone dislike someone because of his religion, or his culture or his ethnic background, my little brain could never absorb such a thing, all I could imagine that it would be a competition between two co-workers. But anyway Yuvanka used to come during mornings and Amina in the evening.

]]> Tue, 12 Apr 2005 03:39:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/23689 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/23451 I just had that weird thought now: What If a country wakes up one day to find that its whole population is but a bunch of youth, Will they be able to run the country?

Well, yes…Why not? That was my answer!!!
In 1952, in Egypt a bunch of young officers ruled the country even though some might have some reservations or restrictions about that revolution but practically speaking the period of the sixties in Egypt was one of the best ones if it’s not the best, as the fact is that they could develop the country, realize agricultural and industrial reform, introduce heavy machinery to the Egyptian culture of industry and develop economic, social, cultural educational growth…

Why did I have that weird thought?
Because much of young people (including me) drown in that frustration sometimes when they take a look at their professional lives, and just wonder why they cannot be in a place of decision making, or even in a place where they would use all their skills, potentials, talents and ability to produce creative ideas…
How much of talented youth work in administrative jobs? How much of them bury their talents in order to live that day by day life, in order to get paid and cover their essential expenses and that’s it? And how much of them cannot get a job at all?
And those youth of Yesterday, those who are now in the places of Leadership and decision making , those who have grasped the chances and the opportunities of Yesterday are still occupying all the places, all the chairs, They used to be yesterday’s leaders, innovators and symbols but now they just turned to pieces of Ice, stone maybe they stopped innovating, they’ve ran out of ideas, creativity but they’re still in place, they’re still in all the places…they’re occupying somebody else’s place, generations have passed and maybe dead and those are still in those places, which lead to the crystallizing of all the current situations, the country’s stopped moving, proceeding ….
How many of us believe they have opinions, views and ideas to be expressed, that can make a difference if we have this chance?
What if all those skills can be used at a time? Among those populations of frustration, don’t they think there’s thousands of Artists, writers, leaders, economists, researchers who can build new civilizations?

I was wondering about the procedure of transfer of power, in beginning of the last century the transfer of power had to take place in a violent way through revolutions that took place instead of Kingdoms and those leaders who was crystallized on those thrones, they achieved developpements and reforms and some of those countries reached prosperity unless those who got engaged in wars or got occupied by one of the super powers. But what about now, Does this have to happen again? I mean the violent transfer of power? Well, obviously in some of our countries this has to happen, and that is due to the crystallized form that have taken most of our leader, or those people forming the managing system of the nation, those pieces of crystals that will have to be broken when you replace them…

]]> Mon, 04 Apr 2005 04:03:00 EDT http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/23451 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/22369 I had that weird feeling yesterday,depressed??No,no..but just that weird feeling of being down,maybe frustrated a lot,I don't know how to describe it especially that I had no direct reason for that feeling..I didn't feel like doing anything at all,I didn't wanna go to work and I didn't wanna stay at home,didn't feel like talking to anyone,not my fiancee and not even any of my friends and when I got back home I just slept for the whole day long..

And today early in the morning I went to have a coffee with a friend,that's my usual solution for those feelings of being down,we didn't talk much about anything specific but I feel a lot better now...
I went to work after that and the smile started to get back on my face again,at work they call me the smiling face,they say they love that smile that is always on myface,and it 's really weird cz I always smile even when I'm lonely or even depressed...
My boss asked me why I'm at the office that early,I said:"well,I just woke up too early today",so he laughed and so I did..I had a quick talk with a collegue,talking about my mother in law who just got into the hospital she's going to make a surgery in her eyes,he talked about mothers in law and marriage life ( P.S.I hate that kind of talks)...

I just decided I'm going to continue my spanish classes,so I'm going this week to ask in the Instituto Cervantes about when the next course begins,I also decided that I wanna study something,maybe in the law schol next semester I beleive it will help me alot in my work,Mmmmm...I don't know it's just one of the million ideas in my mind..

I'm alone in the office today,Reham my collegue took a couple of days off,she's been depressed lately especially after her mom and brother went to Australia to catch up her father, he works in the Egyptian embassy there,they'll stay for 3 years...she's sad cz she's staying alone in Egypt,alone at home..I was joking with her and saying that it's a bless...:)

Now,I guess I better start working]]> Thu, 17 Feb 2005 02:29:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/22369 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/22272 Just wanted to share a little feeling of being in a freshly good mood today...
I'm alone in the office in this calm and cold day,looking from my office window to that usual Egyptian museam,the sight of everyday, the Independance square is empty,almost no cars ( which is very unusual)

In the middle of all those Human rights reports ( where I work ),I just thought of that sweet smile I found on my face this morning ,thinking it must be a beautifull gift..I feel beautifull today...

Sometimes I feel that nobody hears me even if I scream my thoughts loud,and I keep wondering why ,is it maybe cz no one cares about my thoughts,but today I feel that even my muet thoughts are heard even if I don't speak them out...I might be wrong,but since this feeling is here even if it's false than I feel good about that..

]]> Sat, 12 Feb 2005 03:54:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/22272 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21374 She's maybe the first friend I've ever got in my life...I was maybe 6 or 7 years old when I knew her,we were together at school and then we entered the same faculty...
We grew up together, the first time I started dating she was the first one to tell her about it,and the first time I put make up she was with me as well,we laughed,cried....she witness all the critical moments in my life....
She was always listenning to me, I was always the one having adventures,stories and experiences....and when we entered the university she considered it a scary community,she couldn't do a step without me,I was taking care of everything....I was taking her home,choosing her clothes,her food, and even what to draw ( we were in fine arts),if she has a problem it was for me to solve it and if she had a tear i was the only one to see it....
I can remember a time when we were in school we asked ourselves, when we get older,so old actually and become 70 or 80 years will we be still friends????
But,We lost contact..I couldnt stand being a baby sitter anymore ( that's what I told myself then),I had my own problems,my own life that I needed to share too.....

A couple of days ago,I got a phonecall from another friend telling me that my friend's dad passed away.....I cried a lot,over a lot of things...I loved this man a lot,I considered him my father too,I missed him a lot and over her I wished I could be there for her like she was there for me when my dad passed away,I went to her and I hugged her,I wished I could say a lot of things but it wasn't the right time,when she first saw me she said : " thank you so much for coming"....
]]> Mon, 27 Dec 2004 14:31:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21374 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21258 A little question has been troubling my mind since yesterday,it might sound stupid to some of us but it is sometimes crucial to me..
What do you do when sometimes people have wrong images about you,your personality????Do we run to justifie ourselves and correct those wrong images or we wait till they discover by themselves or we drop it never caring about correcting anything???and what if those persons are the closest ones to us???
I'm that kind of persons who are very discreet,though it may seem exactly the opposite to those who read my updates,but in real life it takes a lot of time to know the real me...I never thought of this as a quality or even as a bad thing,I was always thinking of it as a part of me like being silent or being talkative somethign from that kind..
But,after I had started this relationship I started thinking wether it's positive or negative I started getting annoyed when he thinks it's a negative thing and that I need to be more open to people,I started even getting disturbed and he tries to assume things about me that he can't know for sure if it exists in my personality or not and after those assumption he starts judging..and I just asked myself do I need to correct those wrong pictures or do I let him discover himself....????I was always supporting the idea of letting people discovering themselves but now what can I do with my disturbance towars people's assumptions...???]]> Thu, 23 Dec 2004 04:29:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21258 30.05 31.2530.0531.25 http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21194 I was just wonderign : Is it human nature to always complain and never seem to be satisfied about anything..
Actually,through my observance to my surrounding sometimes people complain even when they are satisfied,even when they like those things they complain about...maybe it's just to add some action to the daily routine,or maybe just to break boredom..I don't really know

People complain about the crowd in the streets but when the streets are empty they still complain about the emptiness and boredom..people complain about the loads of work they have but when there's no work they compalin about boredom,people complain when their lovers always say love words and when they stop they complain of cruelness...
So,Is it human nature to complain and always be demanding???Or do we complain to break the ice of boredom?]]> Mon, 20 Dec 2004 05:21:00 EST http://yarinos.tigblog.org/post/21194 30.05 31.2530.0531.25